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[Monday, November 12th, 2012
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This post is created specially for all those things you want to say to me, without letting all them other random-ass readers of my comments (which probably number one: me) see them, here is the place to comment!
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[Monday, September 7th, 2009
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As a note: verbal diarrhoea. words here follow thought, one paragraph not necessarily linked to the next.
When something is out of my control I get uneasy. Well, not exactly. I'm fine with letting people make all the decisions, but if I disagree I prefer to at least make a bit of noise about it.
Up until then, Hillary Challenge '07 was the biggest thing I have ever taken on in my life, in terms of how much I gave. I will honestly say that I went further during those three days than I ever thought I could. At times after that when I felt like giving up on things - after capping some billion times in a day, bashing through vegetation as tall as me, climbing that mountain with what felt like an elephant - I'd look back on those three days, and say, FSK THIS, I SURVIVED HC WITHOUT TRAINING, I CAN SURVIVE THIS. It gave me a confidence I never had before, the one great accomplishment I didn't think I'd get.
I will say that today, I was more nervous than I'd been in a long time. Even during my race during nats, I wasn't half as afraid as today, simply because I knew how much I had put in before will be how much I'd get that day. Training for that race, studying for bloody econs. There is fear, for a while, but when it comes to the starting line it's Screw being afraid, the time is now. Fear drives you forward, but too much of it drives you mad.
Back on topic, today. In that moment before they announced second, I swear my heart was stuttering. I suppose, in part, because of how much I wanted Raffles to place, and because I had had no say in this. I may have helped a (teeeny) bit in prepping them, but when it comes down to it its their race. Their fight. As a spectator, you can see how tired and drained they are, but it is so hard to know if it's enough. I hate that helpless feeling, the feeling that I have done nothing that could have affected this.
So yes, I was dead terrified. Suspense kills me.
Anyway.
Raffles Team 1 won second, by a 500 point margin. Team 2 placed first, by a some 80-odd points.
Keep in mind that second place had 2260 points, thereabouts. o_0
Team 1 was physically fitter, team 2 intended to be the happiest team around.
I can't say I'm happy with the results, simply because no matter which team won, the other would have lost. I'm bloody glad that both teams managed to place, and I'm ecstatic that team 2 won first, but when you look at team 1, who trained as hard as the other, you can't help but feel for them. I know what it's like to lose. They cried, just now. The atmosphere around them was awkward, to say the least.
Team 2 must be overjoyed. When we won, that year, after all the push-push-push and blisters and talcum powder, I cried. Though it is often said that winning isn't the most important thing, I don't think that HCS would have become as important a touchstone to me if I hadn't won it. If we had lost, I would have remembered it as the time I pushed myself, and still failed. It would have been a marker in my life, with the lesson being - pushing yourself doesn't get you anywhere. Because of that one success, I learnt to move past future failures.
Not exactly what these competitions want you to do, I guess. Most importantly, I don't want this to be the case for team 1. They've put in so much effort, especially over the past few days - training never ever gets you completely ready for the actual thing. Both teams wanted so badly to win, but only one can. It would be a fsking shame if the other team took this badly. I would have, I think.
In this, team 1, I hope you're not like me. Don't disregard this failure, but don't get hung up in it, either. Learn from it. Know that you will go on even after this. Pushing yourself doesn't always guarantee you success, but that doesn't mean you shouldn't try. You may not have been first, but if you hadn't put yourself into this, you may not even have placed. If you do not try, you will die never knowing.
Maybe it's just me. I think this reflects a part of me - life goes on, relentlessly. Failure means you have to try again. It doesn't mean life ends here. No use stressing yourself over the answers you wrote an hour ago in the exam paper - you've handed it in, that's it. Study for the next paper.
I hate screwing up, I hate it so badly I'm scared to try because I fear I will fail. But if I never try, I'll never know if I could have succeeded. If you never jump, you'll never learn to fly.
Jump, not off a building, in the literal sense. Suicide is never an option. In killing yourself this way, you're giving up on life. Suicide is one thing I will never do. Life is short, the world is wondrous, and you're going to waste it by dying?
Fight on, niel.
This is one time I truly like the words on the Hwach field: 自强不息!
Back to econs, and Bach.
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Something from a convo with shaun, because it strikes a chord with me:
-Even though, in the end, [To Raffles be the glory], the loss hurts on a personal level.
Sending in two teams, while providing a "second chance to win", means that even if you win, you lose. It's like playing chess against yourself.
My heart goes out to team 1.
Also, I disapprove of using ETA as edit to add. I always think of it as Estimated Time of Arrival. Edit To Add just seems like something the Internet threw together, like excessive chatspeak.
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[Friday, August 21st, 2009
@ 10:01pm] |
On gay rights:
Well, gay as in homosexual.
All comments screened for your privacy.
Quoted articles in italics, not necessary to read them.
I feel rather strongly about this subject: I feel gay rights are civil rights, that is to say, they are natural rights that should be available to all.
( Homosexual Marriage )
On a separate note, sin.
( Where does sin come from? )
I discovered this comment, online, which made me lol:
"Isn't the old testament mostly for the jews and less for the christians?"
Something interesting I found about law:
"Law is a negative concept and not a positive concept. Law is there to prevent harm, not to encourage or mandate good.
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[Frederick Bastiat in his book The Law] "It ought to be stated that the purpose of the law is to prevent injustice from reigning. In fact, it is injustice, instead of justice, that has an existence of its own. Justice is achieved only when injustice is absent.
But when the law, by means of its necessary agent, force, imposes upon men a regulation of labor, a method or a subject of education, a religious faith or creed - then the law is no longer negative; it acts positively upon people. It substitutes the will of the legislator for their own initiatives. When this happens, the people no longer need to discuss, to compare, to plan ahead; the law does all this for them. Intelligence becomes a useless prop for the people; they cease to be men; they lose their personality, their liberty, their property.
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The Law and Charity
You say: "There are persons who have no money," and you turn to the law. but the law is not a breast that fills itself with milk. Nor are the lacteal veins of the law supplied with milk from a source outside the society. Nothing can enter the public treasury for the benefit of one citizen or one class unless other citizens and other classes have been forced to send it in. If every person draws from the treasury the amount that he has put in it, it is true that the law then plunders nobody. But this procedure does nothing for the persons who have no money. It does not promote equality of income. The law can be an instrument of equalization only as it takes from some persons and gives to other persons. When the law does this, it is an instrument of plunder.""
-Purpose of Law, on Family Guardian - some Christian thing.
Not complete, I need to get the rest of my thoughts sorted out.
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[Wednesday, June 3rd, 2009
@ 6:55pm] |
HOLY FLYING PANCAKES I JUST READ NARTUTO 449
( spoiler )
THANK YOU KISHIMOTO-SENSEI
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[Monday, May 18th, 2009
@ 10:57pm] |
Oh, dude, I don't hate the RECAS thing, I just have this serious twitch-response everytime I see it because the header-image location (I don't display images I don't need to, deal with it) makes me think of various spam messages because I've honsetly never heard of that website before XD
And what with the recent surge in MSN/email spam+viruses - willy and lily (hoho, a rhyme) got hit by the MSN one and had their contacts cleared out.
And following the bunch of comments on the previous one (here I'll admit another thing - sometimes I don't read the entirety of comments I receive, partially because I'm usually too zonked; I'M SORRY FRIENDS), the previous, erroneous article was sent out as a joke? a mistake? Whatever it was, it wasn't the right one.
Hmm. There's the thing with the J1s that they said something about in their updated issue, but I can't recall it right now.
HLN was asking around for an old MP3 she could buy because her iPod Shuffle is losted, I realize I haven't had mobile music in a while, too, because I misplaced my earphones sometime during my grandma's wake. I don't have a working MP3 (I did, but my sister uses it, and it's pretty much hers, now), so that's it. You get a lot of random shizz done on the (bloody long 156-to-sengkang-and-change-to-27) bus trip home, though - I've been cubing again, doing KenKen (HKY won't see this, but I FINISHED YOUR BOOK) and sudoku, and er watching TVMobile. I like Just For Laughs, it cracks me up. And EinSteinchen is pretty interesting, for something that tries to compress physics concepts into 3 minute shorts.
..okay I just googled it (GOOGLE IS YOUR FRIEND), and apparently it's originally German, and only comprises 12 episodes. Pity.
I hope I see the Absolute and Relative one soon, I just found the German one on YTube but sadly I DON'T SPEAK GERMAN. Except Ich bin ein rote Apfel.
Right, econs test tmrw - I have absolutely no idea what happens in Macro. Really. You can ask me anything about it - I won't know the answer. I suspect I'm going to submit something very close to a blank script tmrw.
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Physics student or not, this is actually pretty cool to watch.
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[Sunday, May 17th, 2009
@ 11:28pm] |
Rugby Finals supporting on Friday; according to the excel class the chiang forwarded, containing the match support allocations of the classes, 48 out of 92 classes given allocations are going to support rugby on Friday.
Whoa.
On another note, I Laugh At RECAS' newsletter. I didn't really like it to start with, because my first impression was terrible - like WUTW, it uses a header image, except that at least WUTW's is flickr and thus easily identifiable as an image, rather than http://luhkjq.blu.livefilestore.com/y1pmMyrEaQCwbcs0Sx2jBmVsl7a578_iz3OFnFKl9SEqCX8MnKyNiK2XqBE5fWe2-WAvbpU3L5_Cy0LOkBGIu7CAg/Under-the-MacroScope-Header.jpg
( insert here a rant about RECAS and the need for them to CHECK their stuff )
Alright, it's just that they didn't want to go to all the hassle of checking up all their shit, I guess. The articles are still decently interesting, I guess.
I just have a lower opinion of what they consider to be "staying on top of world news and international policy"
Much lower. haha.
SOME LGBT THING HAPPENED AND I WASN'T THERE.
And in case people haven't realized,
YES, I SUPPORT LGBT RIGHTS.
haha I was just thinking, the issue here is mostly the gender thing, because many view it to be morally wrong (there was this recent article which claimed it would damage the social fabric because kids will grow up with a distorted image of a family - would having two loving fathers be considered to be better or worse than having a violent, vulgar father/mother/both, I wonder?). So, if I go for a sex-change op (is that illegal here?), would I be considered to have changed my gender? If I married a male, would I then be considered a transsexual homosexual (since I'm now a man), or just a straight woman who wants to be a man?
Well, there are people out there who'd just call hypothetical-me a freak, I guess.
:D
I'm going with transsexual homosexual. I think it's the same either way anyway ;D
Right, if anyone has issues and would like to hurl them at me- you can always post on my screened comments post.
These can include OMG I CAN'T BE FRIENDS WITH SOMEONE IN FAVOUR OF LGBT EQUALITY! or ME TOO I SUPPORT BUT EH I'D RATHER THE WHOLE WORLD DON'T KNOW or some shizz whatever la.
GOING TO SLEEP HEH.
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[Monday, March 2nd, 2009
@ 9:37pm] |
I feel like a terrible kid.
My dad obviously felt better today - he refused to talk to me the entire Sunday, and this morning, as well - and because he was decidedly less pissed, he actually went all the way to somewhere to get a non-pink LG phone discussed in a previous post.
Except that I'd already decided to bloody come up with the money for the SE C902, 902 902 COME ON NICOLE YOU CAN DO THIS, so it was like. somewhat of a disappointment.
And I feel like some ungrateful bitch because he's so obviously trying to make me happy and I fucking cried after he took out the LG box with phone, and not from happiness, either.
In all honesty I couldn't care less if it were pink or white or black, I hate the LG phone. But I can't tell him that haha.
I'll live with it, it's the least I can do.
Today was a down down down day, school trng home.
Chem SPA tmrw. Missing H3 for trng.
On the bright side, I'll have enough for my watch now. haha.
I'm going to sleep early today because I just don't have the spirit to stay awake.
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[Wednesday, January 7th, 2009
@ 11:05pm] |
So passes the first week of two-oh-oh-nine.
Training has been a blast, barring the STOP GOING FORWARD GUYS NO NO SHIT THE K4 - ouch, very much - everything has gone swimmingly (ha, ha). Jiaolian never fails to command me off to paddle-carrying duty while the rest carry the K4, it is a HEIGHT THING, at which I am appropriately scandalized and the rest are excessively amused, and everyone laughs at me, including myself.
I can so reach the footrest.
And CHEE (who won't see this), IT'S NOT ME. DON'T LISTEN TO THAT PIG JN OKAYYY XDDD
Um.
Stolen from Wynne who stole it from Ele who stole it from Liang, I only know the first, but who cares, really?
Put your MP3 player on shuffle, and write down the first line of the first twenty songs. Post the poem that results. The first line of the twenty-first is the title.
For fluency's sake, I chose to ignore any non-english songs, though they'll get a mention at the end.
People who guess any songs get uh, praise and love from me.
Shorter one-lines are sometimes extended to encompass the first two lines.
( I'm Tired of Being )
THE TITLE IS SO OBVIOUS, GOD.
080109;
If you want to know, there are two songs by 30 Seconds to Mars there, and one DbC.
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[Sunday, January 4th, 2009
@ 8:25pm] |
I didn't mean to post a second time today, really. To those for which this is the only post on 040109, you're not on my friend's list. All my posts are friends-locked, only the impersonal ones (such as this) escape that net.
For the last time, there is a difference between jealousy and envy.
Jealousy, currently, is often used interchangeably with envy - OMG NEW IPOD I'M SO JEALOUS.
However, jealousy is fear, insecurity, anger, possessiveness when you feel an existing relationship [or a possession, if only to you] of yours is threatened by a rival - I am jealous of my freedom; My God is a jealous god.
Envy, on the other hand, implies you do not have that which you desire; you want something you do not possess. I am envious of your wealth; I envy you your innocence.
Zealousness (and not zealousy) is sometimes mixed up with jealousy. Zeal refers to a fervor, an ardor for a person, cause, or object; eager/enthusiastic desire or endeavor; somewhat similar, but with a slightly more positive cast on it. Just until it reaches the mindless worshipping stage, of course.
Jealousy and envy are confused so often possibly because of the overlap - jealousy can, in a way, be explained as an envy, e.g. I envy [my rival], hence I feel threatened, and so, experience jealousy.
So there.
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[Wednesday, December 3rd, 2008
@ 3:58pm] |
Not really, more trekking.
Anyway, will be gone to roo-land from this evening until the evening of the 15th (and not the 16th, as I had thought/told quek. uh gabby help tell? XD); arriving back on QF 051, unless something changes.
Yes.
Toodles.
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[Tuesday, December 2nd, 2008
@ 6:52pm] |
Ytd was the Big Panic Day.
I love HKY.
..anw, main pointof today's post is:
( RWhat is your religion?: Jedi )
"In the 2001 UK Census 390,000 people listed their religion as Jedi Knight making it the fourth biggest belief in the country."
Also, this is interesting: an old article from The Times, in 2003, reads,
"Teachers have voted that no more faith schools should be set up, claiming that they cause social conflict.
The National Association of Schoolmasters Union of Women Teachers agreed that it was an “inappropriate use of taxpayers’ money” to fund faith schools that, by their nature, had “exclusive and discriminatory philosophies”."
Myself, I can't say whether faith schools are directly related to social conflict (like, how the hell am I supposed to know!) and I figure if the faith wants to set up a school then whatever man, it's your choice, so long as you don't force people to go to it. Having the state fund the setting up these schools does seem rather biased, though - it appears that only the more 'conventional' and widely-accepted religions get this boon.
"Other delegates questioned why Jedi Knights— mentioned as a religion in the 2001 census — and Scientologists were not funded to start faith schools."
..if funding were left to the religion itself, I think the Jedi will never have a school.
uhh, not that it'd ever get state funding, anyway. XD
( More on religion, less on schools. )
anyway I really, really, really, should go pack.
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[Sunday, November 30th, 2008
@ 11:47pm] |
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So I was supposed to get the bag from javine ytd, but she asked if we could meet today, so I said yes, with this internal wince because it meant I had to postpone my piano lesson and this meant No SITEX which sucks because I really wanted to get new in-ear earphones even though I have nothing to plug them in to to listen, but something came up so she couldn't today either so she'll come by training ("I'll try to catch you before trng starts!") tmrw, and I really need to start packing for ALPs because I leave on Wednesday and there's about a million things I probably don't have because I haven't been going for ALPs sessions DD:
ah so, anyway.
"hello, my friend thinks that you are, quote, so fit for me, unquote, and that we should get married."
uhhh, lol.
There's nothing particularly interesting I want to say. Been Reading, and Pokemon-ing, and watching Star Wars.
Highlander, SW, and PotO.
uh.
To humour the earworm in my head,
Froh, wie seine Sonnen fliegen
Durch des Himmels prächt'gen Plan,
and
Freude, schöner Götterfunken
Tochter aus Elysium,
Wir betreten feuertrunken,
Himmlische, dein Heiligtum!
Deine Zauber binden wieder
Was die Mode streng geteilt;
Alle Menschen werden Brüder,
Wo dein sanfter Flügel weilt.
I will never get tired of that, though I wish I had a better version. Or the whole piece, sigh.
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[Tuesday, November 18th, 2008
@ 8:19pm] |
Sucks - was skating, and this guy kindof cut in front of me from nowhere - not really his fault, he didn't look very in control of himself - but so it resulted in me taking this bloody odd sprawl - not just the usual FLAIL-end-up-on-ass thing you more often see. I landed rather awkwardly, and my right wrist took quite a bit of the impact, so now I can't bend my wrist more than 45 degrees inward without feeling some sort of pain - which isn't the main problem -, but putting weight - push OR pull, or even resting - on it doesn't look so chipper either. On the bright side, at least it isn't so serious - it's not sprained, just strained, though for 10 minutes after I fell I couldn't really clench my fist properly, it was a a little numb and distant.
IT WILL BE BETTER BY TMRW LET'S GO GO GO >D
Typing/sms-ing one handed - I'm trying to Rest it - Rest Ice Compress Elevate Refer, I did learn something from First Aid Courses/ PE lectures, the Teachers should be proud - is troublesome.
I met shanin at the Rink, apparently she takes lessons, but her coach paused them for her to practice what she's learnt so far. Cool.
The Sister's gang decided to go for doughnuts and bowling after that, which means I Had To Go Too; they insisted I play, so I took up Left-Handed Bowling. It was, eh, okay, not terrible - 56. That's a little worse than when I bowl right-handed, so eh. Perhaps I should bowl left-handed from now on.
So anyway, I want to go bowling again. Pool-ing. IDK, mooching around outside.
The photos zoe tagged of me are Amusing, particularly the one where I jumped into the picture - I look, as zoe put it, retarded.
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[Sunday, October 5th, 2008
@ 9:14pm] |
Oh, Ewan, must you have such exceedingly pretty eyes?
*________________________*
And the accent.
The Island is a rather ADSFK;JGH sort of show, about clones being grown for organs+childbearing and they don't know they're clones and the World doesn't know the clones are conscious - they think clones are all kept in a permanently vegetative state until harvest. Ewan and the Main Love Interest break out, and in the end free the clones. ETC.
If it weren't for Ewan I wouldn't watch it, not really. Shit I am such a fangirl.
Ohwell.
Yummmmmm.
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[Friday, September 26th, 2008
@ 10:50pm] |
Tired. Sleep now. Timetable under cut, for those who'd like to know my free times/days or whatever. I'm free from now until next Thursday, at the very least. Friday PW briefing from 8-9.30 but I'm free after than too ♥. Wednesday may or may not be clear, depending on whether quekxiner decides to have trng, on Hari Raya, o_0
BTW 9th October sucks, you can't possibly want me to come back just for P.E.
( +1 Timetable )
DOES ANYONE WANT TO MAKE A DATE (OR SEVERAL) WITH ME? :D
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[Monday, September 22nd, 2008
@ 11:30pm] |
Run For Hope.
Oct 5th, Sunday.
FRIENDS, ANYBODY?
geooooorrrrggeeeee ):
econs is so screwed it's not even funny, because if you asked me about LRAC MC AC Profits Region of Indeterminate Whatshit I won't be able to tell you a bloody thing.
I want a rock cover of 心中的日月, btw, but it does not exist. Also, needs more music, and
PEOPLE TO WATCH DISASTER MOVIE WITH, probably this friday-weekend-early-next-week.
kbye go sleep nao.
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[Thursday, September 11th, 2008
@ 2:03am] |
It's just past 2 in the morning on September the 11th, one week after the 4th. The 4th holds more significance than the 11th does, though the world will remember the 11th as the Day the Twin Towers Fell and all that.
Two years and a week.
Right. Here's something for you readers (of which total actual readership probably reaches three or something),
This is the story of a girl
Who cried a river and drowned the whole world
And while she looked so sad in photographs
I absolutely love her
When she smiles
THIS MAKES ME SMILE. It's the chorus to Absolutely (Story of a Girl) by Nine Days.
Also, I finally got a decent copy of Suteki Da Ne, the Orchestral version. Not the one that the whole world offers to me, the one which begins with piano rather than violin. It's prettier, and the version I first fell in love with, all the way back in Primary Four.
Something I found on a Piece of Flair on Facebook:
"God wants spiritual fruit, not religious nuts."
On a (mostly) unrelated note,
Get off your damn high horse unless you have a bloody good reason to be up there, YOU.
FORTY-TWO. FORTY-TWO, I SAY.
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