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Pokemon [Monday, November 12th, 2012
@ 8:40pm]

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FRIENDSLOCKED; [Monday, November 12th, 2012
@ 8:12pm]
locked, from 05072005

banner made by draconis_tatsu, Methos, the ROG (Really Old Guy) from Highlander, the television series.

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Screened comments! [Monday, November 12th, 2012
@ 12:19am]
This post is created specially for all those things you want to say to me, without letting all them other random-ass readers of my comments (which probably number one: me) see them, here is the place to comment!

All comments are screened
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290510 [Sunday, May 30th, 2010
@ 12:12am]
Secretly I am very sad when people disappear offline without a word, even if the conversation died a while ago. It makes me feel like I'm not important enough for them to spend even just a few seconds to say 'bye'.
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I Don't Believe In A God [Friday, April 30th, 2010
@ 11:31pm]

When did I realize I was God? Well, I was praying and I suddenly realized I was talking to myself.
--Peter O'Toole

I particularly like the fourth.
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Most of this was stolen off H.E.R.B., but I took those that I actually agreed with. However, I haven't had the motivation to check these against other sources, so they may be inaccurate (as in the case of the one quote I did check, Yuri Gagarin's alleged statement, "I don't see any God up here.", which turned up as Western misinterpretations of statements made by some other officer).

I leave you with this:

"People go to church for the same reasons they go to a tavern: to stupefy themselves, to forget their misery, to imagine themselves, for a few minutes anyway, free and happy."
- Mikhail Bakunin
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290310 [Monday, March 29th, 2010
@ 11:36pm]
My wastes of money stormies met the IKEA zoo the other day.

uhhh chill, man

I really shouldn't get any more stormies, but it's so hard to stop D: D: D:
It's like that time when I tried to convince my parents to get me like ALL THE DAMN BEAST WARS TRANSFORMERS. The only difference being that I make the decisions (MOOLAH VS. ARMY) and fork out the money myself now. Speaking of my little Beasties, I have Cheetor and Airazor, but the latter has lost a leg D:

My cousin says I should name them, ("like, just imagine! 'Hi, *SILENCE*', 'Good morning, *SILENCE*'. Even faceless soldiers need names!) but eh. ahahaha.

Well, Friday was the last day of work!

My cubicle neighbour gave me a paper heart, because Hui Dan + I are always making random origami and tossing them at each other, and they invariably end up given to Adrian.


Dian+Angeline - my reporting officers - gave me this name-keychain-clip-tag-thing (Angie, upon seeing stormie, said YOU LIKE STAR WARS? O: WHY NEVER SAY EARLIER I KNOW WHERE TO GET ALL THIS STUFF! ;D)

dandan gave me chocolate! liek whut haha (: because on her birthday I gave her chocolate, and a note. There's a note-letter from her too, but it's not in the picture.

Ferrero Rocher and Meiji!

Had sushi with Adrian and Hui Dan after work, then we mooched around (HAHA) and dessert-ed, then dispersed. OH I MET STALL 5 AUNTIE. Working at one of those cart-booths at Northpoint :O yes, after that, half an hour ride to Tampines, where I decided to wait for huidan because she was going to her cousin's house, which is apaprently less than 5 minutes away from mine! Took my bus and got off at the same stop, an'all.

Cooking time, forgot to defrost my salmon before I went to sleep so I settled for pasta in chicken soup today. Salmon will have to wait another day though, I have Orders to fry rice tmrw so I can help my mom get rid of all that leftover ham from A While Ago. At least I have meatballs and IKEA HAS POACHED SALMON AGAIN, GUISE WHO WANTS TO GO?

Maybe after MAUS gets back from the Land of the Rising Sun. Also, no, I do not intend to take up stormtrooper photography, I lack the eye (and the camera) for it.
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130310 [Sunday, March 14th, 2010
@ 12:24am]
An interesting image on Christianity.

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image Stumbled upon directly, found at http://www5.picturepush.com/photo/a/1741723/img/1741723.gif. Saved to file to prevent possible future broken links.

Suggest you read from the link above, because PB resized the image to fit it's size limits, so the text is kind of small.

I'd take it a pinch of salt, for example, the part about Mithra seems too good to be true, but Internet searches do appear to support the information there. However, the failings of the Internet include the possibility of false perpetuation, where people assume something is accurate simply because it is published online, and C+P/paraphrase (possibly incorrect) information onto their own websites -> vicious cycle.

Still, it gives you a lot to think about. I particularly like the quote in the bottom left box, as well as one I ran into on a site about paradoxes in general: "He cannot build a wall He cannot jump". A self-referencing statement about any apparently omnipotent force will tend to result in a paradox, for to be omnipotent one has to be both the Immovable Object and the Unstoppable Force.

If it seems I'm always questioning Christianity, I'd like to point out that I actually question religion in general - I think spirituality is important, but religion is not necessary. Christianity just happens to be one of the most prevalent obnoxious religions (I don't get harrassed by Buddhists), which is why there tends to be a lot of back-and-forth about it.

A lot of them also think they own the world/the world-to-be.

Also, it pisses me off a little whenever people capitalize the 'g' in 'god' when they're making a general reference to a god, and not the Christian god specifically.
e.g., "Some are even deists, such as believing in a God, but yet reject organized religion. - sample from here

People often say that sin is when Man chooses to disobey God, God did not create us as sinners, but he created us with the will to choose. I still (as I said before in a previous post) think that a person cannot choose to disobey God if he has no concept of disobedience - even if we choose to 'turn away', we must somehow innately know that it is an option. Where did this knowledge come from? Was it a part of our creation [id est, did God create us able to sin (deliberately, since He always has a Plan, but He gets mad when we sin??), did it spontaneously appear in us (can't be, since all things are born of God), was it placed in us by a malevolent force (the Devil/Lucifer/Serpent/pick-an-'evil'-entity - they sprouted out of the ground too, did they? How did their sin come about, then? HOW THE HELL DID THE SERPENT KNOW TO DEFY GOD), WHAT.

The whole MUST HAVE FAITH TO SEE thing sounds a bit of a hoax to me, too. That and evangelism ("SAVE YOUR NEIGHBOUR") are the kind of thing I'd include in a religion, if I were creating one - a convenient explanation for the unexplainable and a survival+propagation method. A bit like how if I were a king, I'd convince my people that I was a god. My descendants/heirs, too. You're not supposed to kill gods, y'know.

PLEASE REPLY, SOMEBODY, IF IT'S ONLY "I THINK YOU HAVE A POINT" OR "HMM NO I THINK YOUR ARGUMENT IS FLAWED" OR "I HAVE NO IDEA I WONDER TOO". Discussions work better when I'm not talking to myself, I always win (and I always lose).

Unless it's to point out C S Lewis fell away from faith too, and returned to theism and later Christianity, then no, it's okay, I've heard that before, so there's no need to keep repeating it.
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080310 [Tuesday, March 9th, 2010
@ 12:02am]


But not just any shiny Pichu! This one is a Nintendo event one, distributed over Wifi (until the 25th of March), and is SUPER AWESOME because if you transfer it from D/P/Pt (where you can get the PCPichu) to HG/SS, you can go to Ilex Forest and meet+catch the NOTCH-EARED PICHU.


Also, after getting to Pewter City in my HG, I will finally be able to use my First Mystery Gift (again, all hail Nintendo WFC) - the Mystery Crystal, which turns out to be Soul Dew. Then I can catch Latias (or is it Latios?). Will then have to play through SS to get the other. But it is all legit!

Also, WFC and the Global Trade System - traded a Tauros for a Charmander, a Quilfish for a Bulbasaur, and a Rhyhorn for a Vulpix. Awesome day.
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160110 [Sunday, January 17th, 2010
@ 1:29am]
mm FB photo quality isn't the best, but I'm too lazy to resize+upload to photobucket, so I let FB do that for me.

His right eye is too high. To look at it another way, he's making a '.< kind of face.

I'm naming my Gyarados in HG/SS ぎょうざ.
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100110 [Monday, January 11th, 2010
@ 12:03am]
Today is 38
in binary

Today, I trained a Weavile to level 70.
Traded it for someone's level 70 パルキア from Okayama (already had a Palkia, I play Pearl)
Traded Lv.70 パルキア for Lv. 52 ディアルガ from Shiga, Adamant Orb attached.

NAIS PLS. A Weavile for a Dialga whut.

Also traded a bred Monferno for a Torterra (Holding a Big Root), Californian

Used the GTS-evo trick to evolve Kadabra into Alakazam, while trading a Glameow for an Australian (Victoria, specifically, where I went to climb a mountain!) Stunky

Then traded Nidoking for a メタモン Ditto, from Okayama, too;

and traded a Skuntank (bred and raised from the previously obtained Stunky) for a Heracross from Kyoto.

The Heracross is the only nicknamed one I've gotten, it's called カタナ. I laughed. So cute (:
Heracross' name in Japanese is ヘラクロス Herakurosu, so yes, Katana is a nickname.

Still trying to trade for a Munchlax, but (as with all other pokemon) there are unreasonable requests like CELEBI, MEW, LV. 100 SALAMENCE, RAYQUAZA, LV. 30 AND UP HEATRAN. gah.
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311209 [Thursday, December 31st, 2009
@ 10:37pm]



ITACHI (illusion?)


Samehada was so cute awww. The part about growing attached, lol.

I need 478 what do you mean I have to wait until next week
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251209 [Friday, December 25th, 2009
@ 1:24am]
Merry Christmas.

The only MV with decent sound is unembeddable, so you'll have to deal with no MV but good sound. Or you could click the above link.

The lyrics, unfortunately, are not even completely correct. When I'm WALKING, indeed. -.-

Also, I am stuck to my ds. Walking my nintendog dog named, well, Dog, playing ALVIN AND THE CHIPMUNKS OMG. It's like taptap, but with extra bonus things thrown in, including one where you have to say ALVIN! into the DS mic.

Pokemon, of course.

Nintendogs, btw, is a game not meant to be played in public. Not unless you're fine with everyone staring at you while you say, repeatedly, to your DS, <DOG NAME>, SIT DOWN! while you're training it.

Very randomly (I blame the hour), I want a ringtone made from the "dadadadaaa!" part of the song. WOULD THAT NOT BE AWESOME.

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RIGHT-O [Sunday, December 20th, 2009
@ 10:28am]
GUISE for the first time in my short (haha) life I am sending out Christmas cards. Leave an address in the nice screened comments and I'll eh start writing/addressing when I wake up properly/stop playing with Michy's doggie.

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051209 [Saturday, December 5th, 2009
@ 12:43am]

and latelately, elissa!
but no one cares about you la.

To do:
1. Mining level 60 just so I can get into the guild
2. Get a life

Was at vivo today, they had some Vivocity's Little Drummer Boys! which turned out to be a(n amateur) drumline, except it was less of a line and more of a clump of 6. Quite cute, so I bring you one of my favourite drump corps examples - Switzerland's Top Secret Drum Corps. They're made of awesome.

Top Secret Drum Corps are a precision drum corps, they performed in the Edinburgh Military Tattoo (which I stil really want to see) in 2003, and twice after, in 2006 and this year. Vid's from 2006.

Watch it a couple of times, the first time I watched it I was so stuck on the drummers' hands (THEY ARE SO SYNCHRO ZOMG) I missed the flags, vice versa at some other parts.

Like the stick juggling/tossing. The playing on each other's drums. The flag thing where the line moves! The steps when they march!

This appeals greatly to my inner precision drill/drumming/etc fanatic.
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070909 [Monday, September 7th, 2009
@ 9:12pm]
As a note: verbal diarrhoea. words here follow thought, one paragraph not necessarily linked to the next.

When something is out of my control I get uneasy. Well, not exactly. I'm fine with letting people make all the decisions, but if I disagree I prefer to at least make a bit of noise about it.

Up until then, Hillary Challenge '07 was the biggest thing I have ever taken on in my life, in terms of how much I gave. I will honestly say that I went further during those three days than I ever thought I could. At times after that when I felt like giving up on things - after capping some billion times in a day, bashing through vegetation as tall as me, climbing that mountain with what felt like an elephant - I'd look back on those three days, and say, FSK THIS, I SURVIVED HC WITHOUT TRAINING, I CAN SURVIVE THIS. It gave me a confidence I never had before, the one great accomplishment I didn't think I'd get.

I will say that today, I was more nervous than I'd been in a long time. Even during my race during nats, I wasn't half as afraid as today, simply because I knew how much I had put in before will be how much I'd get that day. Training for that race, studying for bloody econs. There is fear, for a while, but when it comes to the starting line it's Screw being afraid, the time is now. Fear drives you forward, but too much of it drives you mad.

Back on topic, today. In that moment before they announced second, I swear my heart was stuttering. I suppose, in part, because of how much I wanted Raffles to place, and because I had had no say in this. I may have helped a (teeeny) bit in prepping them, but when it comes down to it its their race. Their fight. As a spectator, you can see how tired and drained they are, but it is so hard to know if it's enough. I hate that helpless feeling, the feeling that I have done nothing that could have affected this.

So yes, I was dead terrified. Suspense kills me.


Raffles Team 1 won second, by a 500 point margin. Team 2 placed first, by a some 80-odd points.

Keep in mind that second place had 2260 points, thereabouts. o_0

Team 1 was physically fitter, team 2 intended to be the happiest team around.

I can't say I'm happy with the results, simply because no matter which team won, the other would have lost. I'm bloody glad that both teams managed to place, and I'm ecstatic that team 2 won first, but when you look at team 1, who trained as hard as the other, you can't help but feel for them. I know what it's like to lose. They cried, just now. The atmosphere around them was awkward, to say the least.

Team 2 must be overjoyed. When we won, that year, after all the push-push-push and blisters and talcum powder, I cried. Though it is often said that winning isn't the most important thing, I don't think that HCS would have become as important a touchstone to me if I hadn't won it. If we had lost, I would have remembered it as the time I pushed myself, and still failed. It would have been a marker in my life, with the lesson being - pushing yourself doesn't get you anywhere. Because of that one success, I learnt to move past future failures.

Not exactly what these competitions want you to do, I guess. Most importantly, I don't want this to be the case for team 1. They've put in so much effort, especially over the past few days - training never ever gets you completely ready for the actual thing. Both teams wanted so badly to win, but only one can. It would be a fsking shame if the other team took this badly. I would have, I think.

In this, team 1, I hope you're not like me. Don't disregard this failure, but don't get hung up in it, either. Learn from it. Know that you will go on even after this. Pushing yourself doesn't always guarantee you success, but that doesn't mean you shouldn't try. You may not have been first, but if you hadn't put yourself into this, you may not even have placed. If you do not try, you will die never knowing.

Maybe it's just me. I think this reflects a part of me - life goes on, relentlessly. Failure means you have to try again. It doesn't mean life ends here. No use stressing yourself over the answers you wrote an hour ago in the exam paper - you've handed it in, that's it. Study for the next paper.

I hate screwing up, I hate it so badly I'm scared to try because I fear I will fail. But if I never try, I'll never know if I could have succeeded. If you never jump, you'll never learn to fly.

Jump, not off a building, in the literal sense. Suicide is never an option. In killing yourself this way, you're giving up on life. Suicide is one thing I will never do. Life is short, the world is wondrous, and you're going to waste it by dying?

Fight on, niel.

This is one time I truly like the words on the Hwach field: 自强不息!

Back to econs, and Bach.

Something from a convo with shaun, because it strikes a chord with me:
-Even though, in the end, [To Raffles be the glory], the loss hurts on a personal level.

Sending in two teams, while providing a "second chance to win", means that even if you win, you lose. It's like playing chess against yourself.

My heart goes out to team 1.

Also, I disapprove of using ETA as edit to add. I always think of it as Estimated Time of Arrival. Edit To Add just seems like something the Internet threw together, like excessive chatspeak.
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210809 [Friday, August 21st, 2009
@ 10:01pm]
On gay rights:

Well, gay as in homosexual.

All comments screened for your privacy.

Quoted articles in italics, not necessary to read them.

I feel rather strongly about this subject: I feel gay rights are civil rights, that is to say, they are natural rights that should be available to all.

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On a separate note, sin.

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I discovered this comment, online, which made me lol:
"Isn't the old testament mostly for the jews and less for the christians?"

Something interesting I found about law:

"Law is a negative concept and not a positive concept. Law is there to prevent harm, not to encourage or mandate good.

[Frederick Bastiat in his book The Law] "It ought to be stated that the purpose of the law is to prevent injustice from reigning. In fact, it is injustice, instead of justice, that has an existence of its own. Justice is achieved only when injustice is absent.

But when the law, by means of its necessary agent, force, imposes upon men a regulation of labor, a method or a subject of education, a religious faith or creed - then the law is no longer negative; it acts positively upon people. It substitutes the will of the legislator for their own initiatives. When this happens, the people no longer need to discuss, to compare, to plan ahead; the law does all this for them. Intelligence becomes a useless prop for the people; they cease to be men; they lose their personality, their liberty, their property.

The Law and Charity

You say: "There are persons who have no money," and you turn to the law. but the law is not a breast that fills itself with milk. Nor are the lacteal veins of the law supplied with milk from a source outside the society. Nothing can enter the public treasury for the benefit of one citizen or one class unless other citizens and other classes have been forced to send it in. If every person draws from the treasury the amount that he has put in it, it is true that the law then plunders nobody. But this procedure does nothing for the persons who have no money. It does not promote equality of income. The law can be an instrument of equalization only as it takes from some persons and gives to other persons. When the law does this, it is an instrument of plunder.""

-Purpose of Law, on Family Guardian - some Christian thing.

Not complete, I need to get the rest of my thoughts sorted out.
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030609 [Wednesday, June 3rd, 2009
@ 6:55pm]

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180509 [Monday, May 18th, 2009
@ 10:57pm]
Oh, dude, I don't hate the RECAS thing, I just have this serious twitch-response everytime I see it because the header-image location (I don't display images I don't need to, deal with it) makes me think of various spam messages because I've honsetly never heard of that website before XD
And what with the recent surge in MSN/email spam+viruses - willy and lily (hoho, a rhyme) got hit by the MSN one and had their contacts cleared out.

And following the bunch of comments on the previous one (here I'll admit another thing - sometimes I don't read the entirety of comments I receive, partially because I'm usually too zonked; I'M SORRY FRIENDS), the previous, erroneous article was sent out as a joke? a mistake? Whatever it was, it wasn't the right one.

Hmm. There's the thing with the J1s that they said something about in their updated issue, but I can't recall it right now.

HLN was asking around for an old MP3 she could buy because her iPod Shuffle is losted, I realize I haven't had mobile music in a while, too, because I misplaced my earphones sometime during my grandma's wake. I don't have a working MP3 (I did, but my sister uses it, and it's pretty much hers, now), so that's it. You get a lot of random shizz done on the (bloody long 156-to-sengkang-and-change-to-27) bus trip home, though - I've been cubing again, doing KenKen (HKY won't see this, but I FINISHED YOUR BOOK) and sudoku, and er watching TVMobile. I like Just For Laughs, it cracks me up. And EinSteinchen is pretty interesting, for something that tries to compress physics concepts into 3 minute shorts.

..okay I just googled it (GOOGLE IS YOUR FRIEND), and apparently it's originally German, and only comprises 12 episodes. Pity.

I hope I see the Absolute and Relative one soon, I just found the German one on YTube but sadly I DON'T SPEAK GERMAN. Except Ich bin ein rote Apfel.

Right, econs test tmrw - I have absolutely no idea what happens in Macro. Really. You can ask me anything about it - I won't know the answer. I suspect I'm going to submit something very close to a blank script tmrw.

Physics student or not, this is actually pretty cool to watch.
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170509 [Sunday, May 17th, 2009
@ 11:28pm]
Rugby Finals supporting on Friday; according to the excel class the chiang forwarded, containing the match support allocations of the classes, 48 out of 92 classes given allocations are going to support rugby on Friday.


On another note, I Laugh At RECAS' newsletter. I didn't really like it to start with, because my first impression was terrible - like WUTW, it uses a header image, except that at least WUTW's is flickr and thus easily identifiable as an image, rather than http://luhkjq.blu.livefilestore.com/y1pmMyrEaQCwbcs0Sx2jBmVsl7a578_iz3OFnFKl9SEqCX8MnKyNiK2XqBE5fWe2-WAvbpU3L5_Cy0LOkBGIu7CAg/Under-the-MacroScope-Header.jpg

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Alright, it's just that they didn't want to go to all the hassle of checking up all their shit, I guess. The articles are still decently interesting, I guess.

I just have a lower opinion of what they consider to be "staying on top of world news and international policy"

Much lower. haha.


And in case people haven't realized,


haha I was just thinking, the issue here is mostly the gender thing, because many view it to be morally wrong (there was this recent article which claimed it would damage the social fabric because kids will grow up with a distorted image of a family - would having two loving fathers be considered to be better or worse than having a violent, vulgar father/mother/both, I wonder?). So, if I go for a sex-change op (is that illegal here?), would I be considered to have changed my gender? If I married a male, would I then be considered a transsexual homosexual (since I'm now a man), or just a straight woman who wants to be a man?

Well, there are people out there who'd just call hypothetical-me a freak, I guess.


I'm going with transsexual homosexual. I think it's the same either way anyway ;D

Right, if anyone has issues and would like to hurl them at me- you can always post on my screened comments post.

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[Monday, March 2nd, 2009
@ 9:37pm]
I feel like a terrible kid.

My dad obviously felt better today - he refused to talk to me the entire Sunday, and this morning, as well - and because he was decidedly less pissed, he actually went all the way to somewhere to get a non-pink LG phone discussed in a previous post.

Except that I'd already decided to bloody come up with the money for the SE C902, 902 902 COME ON NICOLE YOU CAN DO THIS, so it was like. somewhat of a disappointment.

And I feel like some ungrateful bitch because he's so obviously trying to make me happy and I fucking cried after he took out the LG box with phone, and not from happiness, either.

In all honesty I couldn't care less if it were pink or white or black, I hate the LG phone. But I can't tell him that haha.

I'll live with it, it's the least I can do.

Today was a down down down day, school trng home.

Chem SPA tmrw. Missing H3 for trng.

On the bright side, I'll have enough for my watch now. haha.

I'm going to sleep early today because I just don't have the spirit to stay awake.
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